Walk before you can run

Slow down people! Slow down. I have spent the last couple of weeks in practice trying to explain that things come at the right time and not before. Shame we seem to be under an illusion that we can have anything we want, anytime, any place, anywhere....

So on that note I have to share a moment I had years ago when I was newly a single mum and rather alone in the world, the world was upon my shoulders and I felt it! I worried about the rent, the food, the car, the 'can I support my children'. It really worried me. Then one day as I worried about these things I noticed that the rent was paid, the fridge had food in it, the car had fuel and I was, actually, supporting my children. When this overwhelming worry came upon me again I checked the rent (paid), fridge (had food), car (had petrol) and I was, actually, supporting my children.

I noticed that the worrying made me stop enjoying life: the sunsets, the children's smiles and the little things I missed for the BIG worries. I had to walk first before I could run, I had to trust first before I could see that I am capable and I am (and I still am).

So when you are worried, frustrated or overwhelmed and you think that things should change, look around your own life, see that it is changing that you are coping. You are the driver of your life and you have the tools. Use them.

My responsiblity?

For most of my 'homoeopathic' life and in my life I have felt responsible towards others and their healing journey.
It is a strange thing that I should feel so responsible, when I am aware that I do my best in each moment. However, last week in a clinic full of children (same family), I experienced something that I now know to be self-respect. As I sat there taking case notes and observing the family, a feeling of space settled on me. I felt that I was doing my 'job' and they where doing their 'job' and that I was not aware of wanting to try and take control.
I realised that in doing what I had been doing in the past I had not allowed self-respect for myself or for others. I humbly accept this learning and hope that I continue to grow in all areas of my life.